first day of college

So today was my first day all on my own.  I was slightly excited. well slightly doesn't cover it. I hung out with two of my friends all day and it was great :) no worries about where i was from my parents no curfew (even though i went to my dorm at 10) and all that.  I work tomorrow but i can't sleep.  My roommate has been talking on the phone for an hour now. it's funny as well because i have headphones in and she thinks that i can't hear when she talks about me because i have headphones in.  it's interesting. lol and she has terrible grammar. it's grand. well i'm gonna try and get some sleep liklihood of that happening? slim to none.  but ehhhhhhhh i'm over it lol

Proof

So, it's been a while. Not like anyone is reading this, I mean really who would? but anyway, has anyone out there in bloggerland ever just, needed proof? Like needed proof of God? I know he's out there I can feel it, but I'm so scared that I'm wrong.  Faith is important and I have it, I love God I do.  But it's just scary to never know what comes up once your number's up ya know?  I mean I have plenty of years left. plenty, but, I'm scared.  I guess I've always been scared, I pray, I talk to God.  Sometimes he talks back (not like prophet stuff or anything.  Maybe it's just myself calming me down.  who knows I like to think it's God) saying that everything will be ok.  That he has plans for me, he does for everyone.  There was one time where I had my proof.  I just need it again.  It was amazing.  I was at a youth convention and I was with my friends and we were singing "your grace is enough" and all of the sudden a huge gust of wind swept through the building.  There were no windows that could cause that big of a gust.  and no one else seemed to feel it.  and then I heard Him, he said, "Listen, please, I need you to hear this."  It was like he wanted me to realize something.  After that, I guess I've just been wishing for something else to happen.  To feel God's presence that much, I just wish I could have a few more experiences like that.  That experience made me cry when it happened.  And I still cry when I think about it.  yea, no one's gonna read this.  but if someone does, does anyone else feel like God's there but just waiting for the right moment to make contact?

A Show Choir Performance...

So tonight my school had our debut of our full show choir competition set to the public.  We call it "Swing Inn," don't ask me why, I'm not sure why it's called that but anyway...

Our first performance went amazingly well!  We performed for a change, which is weird.  Usually we just go through the motions and hope it looks decent but no, we did everything we normally don't do!  I loved that fact!  Our set is amazing this year.  It has some musicals like "Next to Normal" and "Shrek" and modern music like Lady Gaga and Shinedown.  It's amazing to say the least.  We have a competition on saturday and I'm really hoping we do well!  I have a solo in our first song "Proud" and hopefully the mikes actually work where we go.  The school we're going to normally has a really good sound system unlike ours so hopefully everything works out for the best :)

Well, thats all I have for right now.  I'm trying to update my blog, I'm just having this feeling it may be a tad boring until I get into college but whatever :)  I enjoy writing about this stuff to absolutely no one :)

A Freaky Vampire Obsession?

As I sat here in my bed the word "vampire" popped in my head.  And then I realized my freakish obsession with them.  I remember when it all started, (how weird is that?)  It wasn't I stress, wasn't from reading Twilight.  Oh no, I'm more of a "real vampire" kinda girl, if there is anything like a real vampire.  I mean don't get me wrong, Edward is divine but I mean come on, what kind of vampire sparkles?  Certainly not a rough and tough vampire.  Much as I love them, I also can't stand the weird love triangle thing going on in Twilight.  In truth, it drives me crazy.  In real life that would never happen 1) because vampires aren't real (sorry to those who hate hearing that.  *coughs* Twihards *coughs*) 2) no guy in their right mind, I would hope, would put up with that back and forth crap for that long and 3) it's just too ridiculous to even go into detail on.




No, the kind of vampires I like are the ones that feel no pity for you as they suck your blood, will die from exposure to the sun, don't worry about their immortal souls, aren't attached to mortals in a painfully boring way.  My kind of vampire is the Anne Rice kind.  Lestat and Louis are the epitome of the perfect vampire.  Attractive, seductive, intelligent and blood-thirsty.  Sure Louis has a moral complex that could drive anyone crazy, the whole "I don't want to kill people" but then changes his mind, then changes it again.  But he never fully commits to a mortal like Edward does.  He stays to his own kind.  Lestat, oh Lestat where to begin with him.  He is, well, as he says in the majority of his books, magnificent.  His skill, humor, boldness, his lust to do good but realizations that that will never happen.  He is truly one of the most attractive characters ever created.  Not just because of his looks but because of his ways of thinking.  On the surface he seems cocky, conceited and vain, but in reality he is truly battling with his  thoughts of right and wrong.  In Memnoch the Devil that is definately apparent.  Seeing the streets of Heaven and Hell takes a toll on him.  so in a way he does actually worry about his soul, but it's quickly covered up.  His sense of humor is so much better than Edward's, well Edward kind of lacks a sense of humor, and when he does have one it's a warped kind of sense of humor.  So, this is my view on vampires.  I told you all sometimes my blog wouldn't make sense.  And this was one of my many to come rants so enjoy :) feel free to share your views on what kind of vampires you like :)

Hello from my fathers laptop!

Well hello!  As you can tell from the title of my blog I want to be an actress.  A stage actress to be specific, my blog will hopefully, I stress hopefully follow me through all my trials and tribulations that come with choosing one of the most ridiculous careers in the world.  And my blog most likely won't be all about acting, it'll be a smodgepodge of randomness and a good way to just rant on random occassions.  I do very much enjoy a good rant every now and then :)  Feel free to make me feel fantastic about myself by following me and my boringness :)  I'll try and keep my blogs pretty legit and fun so, yea, ummmm that's all I have for right now!