Proof

So, it's been a while. Not like anyone is reading this, I mean really who would? but anyway, has anyone out there in bloggerland ever just, needed proof? Like needed proof of God? I know he's out there I can feel it, but I'm so scared that I'm wrong.  Faith is important and I have it, I love God I do.  But it's just scary to never know what comes up once your number's up ya know?  I mean I have plenty of years left. plenty, but, I'm scared.  I guess I've always been scared, I pray, I talk to God.  Sometimes he talks back (not like prophet stuff or anything.  Maybe it's just myself calming me down.  who knows I like to think it's God) saying that everything will be ok.  That he has plans for me, he does for everyone.  There was one time where I had my proof.  I just need it again.  It was amazing.  I was at a youth convention and I was with my friends and we were singing "your grace is enough" and all of the sudden a huge gust of wind swept through the building.  There were no windows that could cause that big of a gust.  and no one else seemed to feel it.  and then I heard Him, he said, "Listen, please, I need you to hear this."  It was like he wanted me to realize something.  After that, I guess I've just been wishing for something else to happen.  To feel God's presence that much, I just wish I could have a few more experiences like that.  That experience made me cry when it happened.  And I still cry when I think about it.  yea, no one's gonna read this.  but if someone does, does anyone else feel like God's there but just waiting for the right moment to make contact?